when sleep eludes...

I blog. I stalk everyone's facebook/blog. I read books. It is the blogging that I am here about. It has been neglected lately, and not because I lack the things to fill the blog, simply because I have been spending my time otherwise engaged. I love my life. I am dating an amazing, funny, caring guy who will in fact stay up all night talking to me on the phone because I am a night person and he knows I don't want him to go. He will also stay up all night to text me the minute I get off work (how did he know that I had just had one of the worst nights EVER?), basically it was adorable and it made me so happy. He is great. He was an unexpected addition to my life, not that I am complaining in ANY way. I welcome the changes that have come to my life since he has entered it (or re-entered...) Just so we are all clear, in case the message was lost in translation. I am in love. (why yes, he HAS bewitched me, body and soul.. :) ) Every day we take a new step and I am learning how to be in a relationship, and while I am not perfect at it, we are taking these steps together. I couldn't be happier (unless of course, we lived in the same state...). That's enough gushing for one blog I should think. :)

ode to bobbi

Bobbi Rae is not just my friend and roommate. She is someone I can talk to about anything and everything, and makes me laugh. And even though she cleans my room for me, this is not the reason I keep her around!! She is the french to my fry, the star to my rock, and the ho to my pimp!! Without her, I would be lost. I love you Bobbi!!

i heart books

as you all well know. so here is a new blog dedicated to this love of my life. books.

http://readitbykara.blogspot.com/

if you are a book-lover or are interested in becoming one, enjoy!

*smile*

I love to talk about things that make me happy. There are many and many things in my life that bring me down and this past week has been emotionally draining, especially at work. So to help me see past those times and those moments when the world gets me down, I just want to, for a brief interlude, point out the beautiful things in my life. Just go with it...
*Having a trip to Maui in 3 short (hopefully very short) months
*Rex. I could elaborate, but I think it is not necessary, and perhaps not the forum for it!
*Talking things out with Bobbi and Vicki, we can just curl up and talk it all over.
*Learning to curl my hair, and make it look pretty (or close to it..lol)
*Talking on the phone. To all of you. To Rex.
*Text messages. Send them my way. I am an addict
*Trying new foods, haven't done this in a while, but if anyone has any suggestions...
*Melmer. She is a super great friend (and my Maui travel companion)..I am glad we work together!
*My bed. It is comfy, and warm, and one of my best purchases to date
*Books. And books.
*Milkshakes from in-n-out..ok lets face it..milkshakes in general
*Looking forward. So many wonderful possibilities ahead. I feel so positive and excited about it all!!
*Church. Crazy things happen in the midst of bringing us all closer to Christ. It is awesome!

I think that is sufficient. I feel better and more invigorated to face the things ahead. Reminds me of the hymn "count your many blessings", makes me realize all the fantastic things and people in my life. Thank you all!! Love. And late.

it's new...

it is proving to be difficult for me to put into words what i want to say, which as it happens, seems to be a rather frustrating trend for me recently. regardless, i do want to share this bit of happiness with you. and i say and mean happiness. and excitement. there is a guy in my life. a funny, smart, kind, caring wonderful guy. a guy that lives in texas...which makes things only slightly more difficult. i don't have all the answers, or this whole thing figured out, but i do know that i care about him, and am more than ready to go on this journey with him. for your sake and mine, i will leave it at that, as communication is not my strong point at the moment. :) take care, loved ones, and know that my level of happiness is not conveyed at all by this post.

i am not a duck

I realize that for those of you that know me even a little bit, know that I wear my heart on my figuratively sleeve. I have given up trying to hide my feelings, because lets be honest, it doesn't work anyway! It is part of my life to get razzed about stuff on a daily basis, and I typically let it roll off my back..after giving the razzer the desired dramatic reaction. Until there is this one day, when it just becomes too much and I yell. Akward moments in my life. I really try to hold it in, but there are those people in the world that can get under my skin, and I end up acting like a complete idiot. It happens, I know, but I still don't know how to control it. At work today they were talking about us nurses and who they like giving a hard time to, and well, it was very evident that they thoroughly enjoyed giving me crap because I am NOT a duck.

hey steve

Ok so the title has very little to do with the content of the post. I am simply quoting a very funny movie that I am watching, Multiplicity. I haven't really felt like posting any events or thoughts in the last little while. This is not a reflection of joy I experienced or the people that I spent time with. I thoroughly enjoyed spending time with my mom here in Orem, and on the 34 hours total we spent in the car rides to and from Texas. I loved seeing all my siblings, and my kids. Loved watching North South, and being able to spend time with Ry. I love you all. This however, is not the reason for the post...
I need to follow-up on the happenings with the dentist. So first after 2 1/2 weeks with the initial temporary crown, I went in for my permanent, and it was the wrong shade. So they had to rush order another one, and back on the temporary goes. On the 23rd of December I went in and got my very pretty permanent porcelain crown that was ALMOST worth all the pain and suffering I had been through. Until..christmas day when sure enough a corner of the crown chips off. SERIOUSLY!? I leave for texas because this dentist debacle is not ruining my time with my family. We return on Wednesday the 6th, I go in on the 7th for them to try to fix the crown, to no avail. It must be replaced. Drat. Here comes the numbing needles. I must interject that the dentist did such a better job getting me numb. And he pulls the crown, molds are made, and a new temporary is fashioned. Forward to about 6 hours later, eating a breadstick from The Pie (delish), and my temporary rips off, and is still in, but the cement is not holding. It is simply precariously jammed between my two teeth. Friday morning approaches and I get it fixed. No problem. Saturday afternoon, sitting in the movie theater watching "Leap Year" (good by the way) eating a kit kat, and yep, my temp crown comes loose. All weekend i make it through without losing it, by eating soup and ice cream. I was so worried it was going to come out at work, then what would I do?! Exactly. This is my front tooth. Monday afternoon, fixed with "better" cement. Good to go, right?! Nope. As it happens, this very evening my lovely temp crown comes loose AGAIN. When is my permanent supposed to come in? Jan 26th. A week and a half away. Is it the weekend? OF COURSE. Is my dentist open tomorrow? NO. So I have the number of a dentist who is, in the hopes that he can fix it tomorrow before I have to spend another weekend praying my tooth doesn't fall out. It might. No joke. Ugh. I hate the dentist. Not as a person, just this whole process has been horrible. Sorry Hilary. I am just really not enjoying myself. Late.