and its another...

COUGAR FIRST DOWN!!....I love those words. I mean I love it. Really love. In case you don't know me AT ALL, I love football. I am sitting in my downstairs living room, alone, on a saturday afternoon, and what have I done all day...watch football. So I sadly did not get the BYU game on TV today, so I relied on espn and watched the play by play as the cougars destroyed tulane!!! (go cougs!!), while also keeping close tabs on the Texas-Wyoming game (started out a little shaky for the Horns, but they pulled it out in the end), while watching the ONLY game I got on the TV: Michigan vs Notre Dame, and of course don't REALLY care who wins, but based on the commentators (who I hate) I a rooting for Michigan. This game has no bearing on me whatsoever (do any of them really?) and yet, I can't be turned away. I love it. At this moment I want to be IN ann arbor as the game comes down to the final minutes, as the wolverines try to keep the lead against the irish. I am crazy, and boring you I am sure, but I just needed to share the fact that I LOVE COLLEGE FOOTBALL!!

"let not your hearts be troubled"

So some of you may know that this past week I took care of a lady at work that was raped, and that this experience sent me in to a tailspin of sorts. I was scared, literally scared. I bought a knife. Then because of some sound advice I bought pepper spray. Guess what? the irrational fear was still there. Ok, so I am not saying that being cautious is irrational, but the level of fear that I felt about the possiblity of it happening to me was pretty irrational. The point. The point is that I happened upon an epiphany that the thing I need to keep me from feeling afraid I already had in my possession. The holy ghost. I feel so much more at peace. Not to say that I won't keep the pepper spray handy (face it, I am a single gal and sould be safe) but I am not scared anymore. I feel a peace and calm that can only come from that great Comforter. John 14:27. Happy sunday!!

my adultness

I have recently moved into a house. Sure with three very awesome roomates (depsite rumblings of discord..things are going well) and I am very excited about it. I absolutely loathed the whole packing and moving business, but once that was done ( and by done I mean that everything is out of my old apartment..not necessarily put away here at the house..but still)I loved putting things up on the walls, organizing our 200 movies (in aphabetically order thanks to a slightly ocd roomate) and most of all..buying a bed and other bedroom furniture to put in my room.... ta da...


I feel very grown-up in this bedroom. Me. The girl who was NEVER going to grow-up..am finally embracing my adultness, and I pretty jazzed about it. Well..at least about my grown-up bedroom that is. I will say that although my bedroom very well could be an add for IKEA, I love it. And am going to try with everything I have to keep any messiness contained to the very large walk-in closet. I did perhaps gain some insight as to why the messiness might linger, and it is this, I am a perfectionist..sure maybe that seems not like me at all..but in school I have to get good grades..not that I want to..I have to. So it goes apparently with my bedroom..I wanted to cry when a friend came in and jumped in the middle of my nicely made bed (apparently channeling my mother here) and messed it up. I painstakingly hung things up so they would be in the middle of the space and had my level so things would be just so. I decided that it is easier to live with mess than to deal with that level of OCD/anxiety/anal/freakiness. That being said, I do like my room, and am going to make a concerted effort to keep it tidy. There..i blogged. With pictures. On with it. :)

"hey..guys..i kinda hurt myself..."

So...I had my first day of work in the ER as a meet and greet day to get to know people in all of the different departments that we work with, one of them being the EMS/Paramedics/Fireman in the area. So with about 4 hours left in my day I walked to the fire station to meet the guys and I would then be with them until the end of the day, if they went on a call, I would ride along. So we didn't get any calls, but they showed me around, and we hung out and watched some tv and had a good time. We then went out on a call, turned out to be a false alarm, so basically we just drove around the block. Back at the station and trying to get out of the truck (aka ambulance), I slipped going down the stairs and hit my knee against this bolt/door latch thing and it kinda hurt..so I looked down and was going to just rub the pain away when I noticed that there was a hole in my pants..not a good sign. So I pull my pant leg up...and this is what I see....


Yeah sorry for the graphic nature of the image, but I figure you all can handle it. I know it is gross, but it truthfully didn't hurt that bad. I then had to get back IN the ambulance and be hauled to the ER (not that it was an emergency, but having walked to the station, couldn't exactly walk back). SO embarassing. Ended up back in the ER as a patient. Not so fun, but I guess in a way it was an interesting way to jump off my career as an ER nurse. So the Dr was great, and everyone was nice, and soon I was all fixed up. 23stitches and a bit of pain to take with me.

here we are...

I guess there are updates on my life, although, I am pretty positive, that anyone that reads this already knows everything I have to say, so basically...what's the point? But I am getting tired of the comments on my last post, so here we are.

I have a new job, although I haven't started it yet, you know being a good employee and giving two weeks notice and all. I will start working in the ER on July 14 (I feel a little like Cameron Poe as I say that..) however, I have to orient to all there is to learn and do for 6 weeks, so I will at some point have exciting things to share, but they may be a bit far off. I am super excited though, just so you know. :)

My mom is here and has been here for what 3 weeks (I love that she's here for anyone wondering) it has been difficult at times to try to maintain my social life, and I tried at first, but have since just taken to spending time with mom when I am not working, which doesn't seem to be enough time. We did however have a 5 movie Harry Potter marathon and a 3 movie Underworld marathon...that was fun. :) Went to Salt Lake yesterday, interesting day. We watched the Joseph Smith movie...comments probably don't need to be made in this forum. But I love salt lake, and mom...so it was good! We did really really love the Nauvoo Cafe!

Michael Jackson died, AS WE ALL KNOW!! Just so we are clear, I did love his music and am sad that his life had to come to what it was, and end in the tragic way it did. I played his music for awhile in the car, and made peace with it, and now, as the memorial service is endlessly on TV, I just want them to let him rest in peace. Let it be...let it be. RIP Michael.

Two weeks until I go to colorado for vacation and reunion, am VERY excited to see everyone! And to go to Taylor Swift..lol...but really I am. :) That is really all I have to say right now, I am at work, which is being endured now that there is an end in sight to this madness. Late.

i don't want to talk about it

So school is going really well..i have taken two tests so far..and gotten A's on both..hooray!! i feel very good about that area of my life right now. Needless to say that is the ONLY area of my life that I feel like I have a handle on. And as the title of this post suggest..I don't really want to delve into all that today. So maybe when I am not in a weird mood, I will once again feel the desire to share more details, but for now, suffice it say that in general things are well, I have a job, a home, a slightly bruised heart/ego, great friends, and new shoes. :) Blog on my friends, and keep me updated about all of your wonderful lives!!

and the school bell rings...

Yes, that is right, I started back to school this past week..to catch anyone up that is slightly confused by this..I am going to BYU this spring/summer and possibly longer to get some basics so I can finish up my bachelors degree in nursing. I decided to be a little bit adventurous ( and a bit crazy perhaps) and take statistics this semester..so we had our first lecture on wednesday up in salt lake. I took the class in salt lake for a few reasons, one because it is only two days a week (which means only having to take two days off of work), and because to be honest..everyone says it is easier up there..and any help i can get i am going to take, because I have not been in a math class since fall 2002 and that one did not turn out so well. I am however going to take it one day at a time, and I have some great friends and family who have been encouraging me and I know I am going to be great at stats..maybe ;)

a side note: the swine flu scare has kept me home from work the past two days..as I have been sick and my work does not want me there with suspcious 'flu-like symptoms'. to be clear, I am fine, just feeling a little under the weather. AND..I do not think the swine flu is quite the crisis it was made out to be.